Today for me is about the realization that I need to shine wholesale football jerseys my light brightly for the world to see. Its about realizing that I HAVE THE ABILITY to light up a dark space & TO ACTUALLY DO THAT!
Its about realizing that I have the power, picking up the pieces from where it was lost over the years, owning it again FINALLY & JUST shining for the whole WORLD to see!!!!!
Its about believing & re-enforcing that belief within myself so that it becomes a part of me. Its about choosing how I want things to be & having faith that it will be as it must be, as I want it to be & that it will be good.
Yesterday morning started off terribly BUT I realize now that it was Gods way of absolutely PUSHING me to the edge of the abyss so that he could expose the weakness in me to me & allow me the choice to finally embrace it & most importantly make a plan to CHANGE IT!
The afternoon ended off with the most inspiring session with a young lady who is guiding me on finding my true potential. Unlocking the secrets to yourself, finding the triggers for your growth, identifying the stumbling blocks & chipping away at or removing them, dealing with recurring themes that may hold you back…. How blessed I am to be doing this as part of my development in my workplace?
Everything that I had thought about on the drive into office that morning, the questions that I had been asking myself in my head were all confirmed by her in the session through just the simple exchange of thoughts & words…. and once again God came to reveal himself to me. He is constantly working towards the goal post & even when I think I am cheap nfl jersey china stagnating, he is ticking the boxes to get me to where HE needs me to be.
What became so evident to me whilst driving into office during the morning rush is that I keep putting myself into compromised positions that DO NOT serve me or those I love & it is because I am putting the plan together. I have an idea or ideas in my head of how & where I am headed and I have NOT YET set the standard of what I NEED or how I need to be treated. PUT SIMPLY, I have not yet realized what is important to me & stood my ground on points that should not be compromised.
I constantly complain about what I don’t want in my life YET I allow those things to be a part of my life! I strive towards treating people fairly yet I don’t treat myself fairly & I also allow myself to be treated unfairly. Why do I not think that I deserve better…. that is something that I may need to work through processing. Always extremely grateful & thankful; even when I have worked myself into stupor to deserve the opportunity. Gratefulness & thankfulness is something that I was raised with… but maybe self respect was lacking in the lessons I was taught & the attributes that were encouraged? I may even DARE I SAY be a product of an era of segregation; being brought up to feel disadvantaged & inferior?
BUT I am not a product of my past….& once again I am on another journey, so many lessons & realizations & growths happening concurrently.
It will not be easy to realize my true worth & continue to view myself in that light. It will not be easy to view myself as ENOUGH & realize that I have given so much already & continue to give so much that is worthy & worthwhile…
I also have to forgive myself for all the years that I have allowed my own self degradation. I am ENOUGH, I am a GOOD person with a good heart & a GREAT purpose. I have touched lives, I have shared light. I have motivated & grown people. I have tended to broken hearts & I have helped build cocoons that have nurtured the most beautiful butterflies….
“I too am like a butterfly…. Fragile & afraid even though I may fly in the front of the formation. I sometimes need a gentle hand to lift me to the skies & for someone to whisper….. fly free. I may alight upon a flower to find nectar & have no success but I will live to alight upon another flower. I may get weary & need to rest my tired wings to fly another day. There will be rainy days & I will have to take shelter… I cannot keep going through the storm. I was born as a version of myself, I put in effort to build a cocoon to be a better version of myself & if I don’t take care I could destroy myself.”